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IN TIME

There are a few things that haven’t changed. One being I still don’t know how to start. This feels eternally awkward and part of me wonders if it always will. I’m sitting in the exact place I wrote the duly named ‘WHAT THE F*CK’ (April...

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THE FLOAT

I always know when it’s time to write, I can’t sleep. I recite paragraphs in my head thinking of where to place line breaks and how my words will read. I haven’t done this since September, apparently, a testament to the pace of the ambivalence...

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GODSPEED

I’ve done it again. That thing where I get all motivated only to go ghost shortly after. I always loved the idea of consistent writing and allude to it far too much for it not to become common practice. Annoying, but entirely fixable on my...

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ISOLATION STATION

I wondered when the next burst would come. Often, I worried it would never come at all. 11:45 pm on a Thursday wasn’t expected, but sometimes the best nights strike you by surprise. Maybe it’s because I spoke to my best friend on the phone...

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THINGS THAT ARE ALLOWED TO SUCK

I remember when I first moved and someone asked me what my least favourite thing about London was. What a curious question I thought, why on earth would that be your go-to? After small consideration I decided it was because some people want to see...

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ENTER, 2020

To the many, moments ahead and special times to renew in the form of; songs sayings dishes dances weekends pictures meetings phases. Wednesdays that feel like Thursdays and fate at its finest. Allowing feeling in all we do and noticing how much we’re willing to give.    💚...

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I CAN’T DECIDE IF I’M LIBERATED OR LONELY

I’ve decided that being single is a strange, fickle business. How quickly the pendulum can swing from sisters doing it for themselves to wow solo AF. It comes down to a series of simple factors, notably: location, mood, agenda, and ultimately, desire to self-sabotage (I’m...

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ARCHIVE: IT’S LATE

07/09 12:18 AM on a Saturday and I’ve slept all day, now just finished watching McQueen. Feeling part inspired, part homesick (not really actually) with a longing for love and sense of confusion for myself.  I ate cereal for dinner because I felt like something sweet. I...

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LONDONTOWN LEARNINGS

I was looking through notes on my phone and found I had left myself some. Cute, and thoughtful too, because each one threw me back to a random little memory I thought I’d share.  I’ve made an effort not to change the titles and copy straight...

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WOW, HI

This is weird. I don’t think I’ve ever backspaced a beginning so many times. Surely a cross-continent relocation would give me a thing or two to say ha. Now I’m smiling almost ironically as I come to realise I feel severely uninspired in contentment. Even...

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